Yet Not I

I dream of the day when I may boldly say, “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.”

Loving God is the best choice, the best solution, the best investment, and the most wonderful time a person can gain after accepting him into his/her heart. And this is my prayer, that you may ask, God, if you are real, reveal yourself to me and show me your way. Amen.

Expectations far beyond comprehension

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.

Instead of the thorn shall come up the fir tree, and instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree: and it shall be to the Lord for a name, for an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.

Verses taken from Isaiah 55

Internal Dialogue

The twenty rush settled one particular ideal, “por tanto id y haced discípulos en todas las naciones”

All through the teens it gravitated towards, ‘those who go’

Then like a sudden ray it pierced my own ideal, for life is but a brief trailer of our future

Almost ten years have gone by and I pray that my desires and dreams may align with yours

According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:

Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.

And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge;

And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness;

And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity.

Verses taken from 2 Peter 1

The Beautiful

A man is not measured by intelligence or beauty, he is measured by his pure existence

A woman is not measured by beauty or intelligence, she is measured by her heart

She who patiently awaits as the rain covers and splashes over her pool of dreams

She who rises and contemplates her child breathing and overjoys as the toothless child smiles at her

She who suffered at the cross as stained drops covered the ground…

One’s beauty is internally developed for each is measured by the mere essence of existing

Our weaknesses have been washed away by the blood of the lamb and our opportunity to live was sealed at the cross

a beautiful heart is only found in Christ, conceived by God alone

Now when the dragon saw that he had been cast to the earth, he persecuted the woman who gave birth to the male child. But the woman was given two wings of a great eagle, that she might fly into the wilderness to her place… And the dragon was enraged with the woman, and he went to make war with the rest of her offspring, who keep the commandments of God and have the testimony of Jesus Christ.

For the will of God, we bear the cross, for in it we find life.

Verses taken from Revelation 12

 

Whom Have I

So foolish was I, and ignorant: I was as a beast before thee.

Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand.

Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.

My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.

For, lo, they that are far from thee shall perish: thou hast destroyed all them that go a whoring from thee.

But it is good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all thy works.

Taken from Psalm 73

“Failure” is in One’s Favor

“Be strong and of good courage, and do it” were the words of king David to his son Solomon. These same words can be applied to our daily decisions and feelings if lead by “a perfect heart and willing mind.”
A few years ago, speaking to a friend, I said, “Life would be so simple if people openly shared their thoughts and feelings with one another.” However, would such action lead to disaster, relief or both?
Analyzing the situation, I realized that what prevents us from sharing our ideas and feelings freely is shame. We are afraid of human rejection and our own failure. Shame and/or embarrassment  has trapped us to live scrupulous lives. This shame can engrave in our minds  so deeply  that we may not even live but remain in a slavery stage of guarding our image. Nonetheless, humans were made resilient and called to live fully. Jesus said, “The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” Nothing can separate us from the love of God except ourselves.

Failure is in one’s favor, it makes us stronger and courageous to get the job done.  I precisely recall the times when a “no” as an answer helped me move on to the next step. Happily a “no” leads to greater opportunities. Being in a state of perplexity, wondering what could happen can dwarf the possibilities of life. God calls us to be strong and courageous because He is our father and king. No human being can tell us otherwise, we are meant to live, experience, move on, but most importantly claim the promise of life as children of our one and only heavenly Father.

And Solomon said, Thou hast shewed unto thy servant David my father great mercy, according as he walked before thee in truth, and in righteousness, and in uprightness of heart with thee; and thou hast kept for him this great kindness, that thou hast given him a son to sit on his throne, as it is this day. And now, O LORD my God, thou hast made thy servant king instead of David my father: and I am but a little child: I know not how to go out or come in. And thy servant is in the midst of thy people which thou hast chosen, a great people, that cannot be numbered nor counted for multitude. 

Give therefore thy servant an understanding heart to judge thy people, that I may discern between good and bad: for who is able to judge this thy so great a people?

And the speech pleased the Lord, that Solomon had asked this thing. And God said unto him, Because thou hast asked this thing, and hast not asked for thyself long life; neither hast asked riches for thyself, nor hast asked the life of thine enemies; but hast asked for thyself understanding to discern judgment; 

Behold, I have done according to thy words: lo, I have given thee a wise and an understanding heart; so that there was none like thee before thee, neither after thee shall any arise like unto thee. And I have also given thee that which thou hast not asked, both riches, and honour: so that there shall not be any among the kings like unto thee all thy days. And if thou wilt walk in my ways, to keep my statutes and my commandments, as thy father David did walk, then I will lengthen thy days.

Placing God before men allows us to fully live. Be of good courage and do what God calls you to do, for it is Him that gave His life that you and I may live forever.

Verses taken from John 10:10, Revelation 3, and 1 Kings 3

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38, 39

Valor

His life had been mechanical and structured. He had not realized how dependent he had become. As the evening came to an end, his perplexed face evoked pity. None of us could speak, we were perplexed. His life had turned into a musical of disaster. Never before had he tried to face conflict or make his own decisions. He could hardly speak.

A boy ran from the back of the auditorium, screaming, “save me!”. Valor jumped at once, he recognized the voice of the child. “Save me!” said the boy. Valor replied, “I can’t!” They both looked directly into each others eyes, and as the boy ran, he screamed one more time, “save me!.” “I can’t!” screamed Valor. Guards entered the auditorium and ran after the boy, strained him, covered his mouth, and took him away.

Blazing light shines on the destroyed soul of Valor. Crying bitterly he says, “turn the lights off!”. “I will not, you have to keep acting!” says the director. “Turn …them …off!”

Suddenly, one by one the spectators begin to exit the auditorium. Now, left alone at last he lays on the floor. A familiar voice speaks in the background, “Get up, you are free, no one is watching you.” The words of the boy resound again, “save me!”. Valor weeps the more, “I am lost, I’ve been lost, I am that boy.”

On that day Valor understood strength for the first time. To walk one must deny self, deny father and mother, and everyone’s expectations. A man must fight for a Kingdom, His own heart. Blessed is he who fights for the will of God, for in his eyes shine the purity of everlasting life.

Salvation Has Come

dusty air creates swirly patterns
with each step, the weary beast splashes majestic dust
heavy and overwhelmed, it shifts with rhythm and as it rests –
its eyes remain open through the night

its treasure is exceedingly great
its ears can hear the voices of the angels, and the voice of the child
each sound reminds it to continue the journey, which has been a hard delight

its limited mind can’t comprehend hospitality matters among the brethren
it is the peaceful assurance that comes from its master –
a trajectory that started with confidence and heavenly advice

as it finally lays down, the most beautiful cry elaborates its mind –
lifting its soul to a profound and godly encounter

for unto us a child is born, the blessed child that brings salvation to this dry land – perfection in the purest form

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, goodwill toward men!